Rambling and speechless

I’m a little speechless. So I’ll likely ramble.

I’ve been all over the map emotionally, spiritually, and most definitely physically this week. Down with a bad cold after holding a sick baby in nursery on Sunday – my reserves are low. I’m struggling with God’s goodness. Why me? Why us? I have been so unfaithful throughout my life with His gifts. Part of the time, I believe He’s giving this to us.. but then I wonder.. are we taking it for ourselves? The 👿 and 😇 on my shoulders are working overtime. But I don’t want to hear their voices.. I want to hear God’s. I know James 1:17 well

But does it apply here? Am I just taking this for myself? Couldn’t the money and time be better spent elsewhere? Of course it could. But I have a deep desire to bless others in and through the home God has granted us stewardship of. .. much like my sister and brother do in theirs. But couldn’t I have done that in my oddly little shaped house before? Of course we could. I think we tried.. but I always felt so inadequate. I saw the flaws. My focus was off that’s for sure.

did we do this too quickly? Pray about it enough? Seek wise counsel? Sigh. But yet here we go.. here we are. I’m fragile. Be nice to me. And don’t Pooh-Pooh what I’ve shared either. It’s real and it’s raw. Also I’m not fishing for affirmation. I’m just sharing the real heart of the matter. This isn’t always as easy as it looks on the outside.

On the other hand, when I’m not overthinking everything.. I am getting excited about the house and the progress. We ordered Canadian made stools for our kitchen this week through Ryns furniture.

That was a hint.. after I was playing with colours and components of the stools. The wood, the steel, the fabric.. so fun to “build your own”. I look forward to hanging out in my kitchen with family and friends gathered around the island.

Pete the taper came yesterday and was back again today. His artistry at taping amazes me. After dealing with the boarders, it’s a real joy to work with Pete. He comes early, stays late, brings his own coffee maker so he doesn’t waste time or money running to Tim’s..his work ethic and care is inspiring. I think I thanked him 8 times today. He found a window issue we didn’t know about, just via scrutinizing his own work. This type of tradesman is getting harder to find. One that takes great care and have real talent. I think our schools do a disservice by telling the less educated, less dedicated young men and women to get into trades, cause it’s all that they can manage. We need good hardworking, intelligent, smart common sensical thinkers who can do math in their heads.

I have a few nephews on both sides of our family who are tradesmen. 2 electricians and a stone mason. They are all of the above. I am proud of and thankful for them- But they are getting rare. 🐇 trail. Sorry. (Not sorry)

Here’s some of Pete’s work today, including a view of our new main floor Butlers Pantry/laundry room.

He still has a couple days of mudding and sanding ahead, but already it looks so great, and he’s taken care of all the issues left behind by the boarders.

Mike the insulator called me late last night, freshly back from his 2 week fishing trip up north, asking me if he could come blow the ceiling insulation in. He’s another guy like Pete. Shows up, calls ahead, works quickly and diligently.. plays nice with others. He also takes forever to invoice. I often have to ask him to. I knew I wouldn’t have to chase Mike to come back. He’s one of the few that when he says “yes” the first time, he’s there.

The exterior stone should be in next week, and I still haven’t confirmed our mason.. but the siding guy is booked for 2nd week in December. Spent some time going over what I still need Lincoln Construction to do in the next week or so before masonry. Exterior R5 Insulation has to go on exterior walls, then they need to be strapped for siding. Porch beams to be installed, temporary exterior stairs built until landscapers come in the Spring, (remembered this later) egress window in basement still needs to be installed (it’s just shimmed in and taped right now to keep critters out.

Bill now has all the brick off on the affected exterior. Wow, what a job! He would give Pete a run for his money if he was a taper. My WillYum has the most amazing work ethic, attention to detail, stamina, and strength. I am indeed blessed beyond words. Speechless. Verklempt.

that’s enough rambling for one so speechless. Talk amongst yourselves..

Published by billandamyskitchen

Bill (Guillermo 'cause he likes pretending he knows Spanish) and I (Amy) have been married since Sept 2005. We live in Southern Ontario, Canada - Niagara Peninsula in fact, smack dab between 2 of the Great Lakes. We love God, our family, our church family, and making each other laugh. (ergo the profile pic, he decided to make our photographer laugh by throwing a leg up on me just before the shutter clicked, which made ME laugh) When we married, I told Bill: "I don't know how to cook" but he had faith in me. So 15 years later, I'm still learning, and having fun. I've never (in my whole life) cooked a whole bird, chicken, turkey or otherwise. I've never roasted a beef, other than in a crockpot on low for 8 hrs. I like trying to find healthy & easy recipes and then I rarely follow them. I don't enjoy recipes that take hours or intricate steps. I have a special fondness for the Podleski sisters, writers/creators of the Looney Spoons, Crazy Plates and Yum/Yummer cookbooks. In 2018 we suddenly decided to rip our small house apart from stem to stern, moving out for 4.5 months while the house was demolished inside and out, and then rebuilt with an addition. If you go back in the archives to July-Dec 2018 you can follow that story. It's made our house open and so much more conducive to entertaining, small groups and large. It's given us the kitchen I've dreamed of to create and learn in. We feel incredibly blessed to be able to write about our journey, our faith in God and some fun recipes along the way. Thanks for joining us.

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  1. Oh Amy. You are second guessing and you don’t need to. Anyone who knows you well will realize your heart is in the right place and that you will use your house for Gods glory. You will bless many I know. Ron and I included. I read your post and think I did my change for me alone and feel a bit guilty by that. Enjoy what God has ally you to do. ❤️


    1. I said no affirmation.. 😁. The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked.. who can know it? How do we know my heart is in the right place? It’s ok I’m not looking for an answer.

      In your Reno, you allowed for your guests to have their own bathroom. Your home has a loving and open atmosphere. You invite others into your home regularly, hosting groups and family. You’ve worked hard over several years to create a home to bless others in. Don’t second guess yourself either! ❤️❤️❤️

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