Before I get into today’s post.. a couple interesting things… I changed the kitchen signboard… I wish I had thought of this before signing off on the last post.. it would have been perfect.
as a post script to the above… he DOES eat his bread with butter (not alone) and he also eats eggs, fruit, yogurt, drinks plenty of water.. AND He DOES feed on the Word everyday. Just in case you were wondering. I’m a very blessed woman. Have I said that lately?? Not enough, I’m sure. Oh, and he likes Veggie Wreath. (today’s blog recipe) And Chocolate. Who am I kidding.. there’s very little he DOESN’T like.. but Bread is definitely tops on his list of “Likes”.
We’re both back on our feet again. Finally. I said to someone today, “they should just take a syringe of my blood, and use it for a flu shot, cause i think i got them all this year.”
I get stir crazy, feeling behind, and guilty, or some niggling feeling i can’t quite put my finger on when we have been laid up for more than a day. Depression sets in too, and if I’m not careful, i’ll have a hard time cycling back up again. There’s so much I wish we could have done over the last several weeks.. and now I want to do it all in one week. There’s several people we want to host for dinner/lunch .. some we’ve been talking about for over a year to have over. The list keeps getting longer, and our time shorter.. and we lost so much time the last couple of months. And it BUGS me. There.. that rant is over. And i need to take my “to do” list in bite sized pieces – not get overwhelmed.
I had in mind this week to make one of our old favourite recipes that I found probably 8-10 yrs ago in the Kraft Canada magazine. I used to get it in the mail (for free) several years ago. When it was first published, it wasn’t full of ads – it was really a good recipe magazine.. i kept several from it. Lots of cheese of course. 🙂 I mean, it is a KRAFT recipe magazine. I remember way back when their website used to have this thing where you could type in 3 food items that you have in your house, (say – eggs, broccoli, tomato) and it would give you a recipe based on those 3 things. I’m not sure if their current website does that anymore – I haven’t found it yet if it does.. but i’ll keep looking and report back. I signed up again for their E-newsletter, ’cause I’m always looking for new recipes, and want to broaden my repertoire of cooking.. which really isn’t much… yet. I mean, i have maybe 5-7 good dinner recipes that I can make easily without thinking too much, and about 3 i would serve to company.
Here’s a link to today’s recipe, what I call the Veggie Wreath
Except i cheated… i added ham.
Here’s the thing about me.. if you hadn’t read this yet in a previous post, or knew this already…. I visually scan recipes, sometimes several similar ones.. then close the book, and do my own thing. I will then usually open it up again just to get the cooking time & temp. So my meals rarely look like the photo in the recipe. Does anybody’s??
So here’s my alterations to the linked recipe.. when shopping today, i forgot that it was supposed to be the brick Philly cream cheese, (i bought a tub of the herb & garlic) and i also forgot it was supposed to be frozen broccoli. (i bought fresh) I doubled up on the tomatoes (cause we all need more RED in our lives), I added ham. and i also put in some Greek seasoning. And.. more cheese on the top (Swiss for Guillermo, Havarti for me) and I left out the onions… cause i actually forgot.
I will always use the broccoli stems too (if they’re not all dried out and gross).. peel the hard exterior off, and the stems are quite lovely. I put them on a veggie tray too, often as spears. The stem is my favourite part of the broccoli! Crunchy with great flavour.
I put the veg (broccoli, tomato, mushroom) (and ham) together in one bowl after cutting it all up. Next, softened the cream cheese, and stirred in the 2 eggs and shredded cheese.
then poured the mixture over the veg & stir.
Next open the cans of crescent rolls. You either LOVE doing this.. or it freaks you out…or if you’re like me, you’re right in the middle. When the spoon bends into the curve on the roll and pops in my hand…i always jump and my heart skips a beat. POP!!
I start with the first can doing 4 triangles opposite each other, then fill in the next 4, so there’s a circle of 8, then open the next can, and layer those 8 triangles in the middle of the first 8. (there’s 8 crescent triangles per can) It doesn’t turn out as pretty as the Kraft Canada site recipe.. but i tried it their way ONCE and i was left with an unfinished circle at the end, like i had a C shape, instead of an O. I had to take it all apart, which wasn’t pretty… I’m not good at free hand circles. So i use this method.
Next you ladle in the mix around the circle on the wide part of the triangle… it heaps up a good 2″..(or more if you’re like me and you added in way too much ingredients.) 😚
Guillermo helped take some pics when i was putting the mix in the middle of the wreath ring, it’s a bit of a messy 2 handed job. My inner ring is NOT 5″ diameter… i saw that instruction after I made my wreath.. WOOOPS… it’s just a wee bit bigger.. Then you (can) top it with more cheese (the Swiss & Havarti strips) and then fold over the triangles and tuck the pointy ends in underneath in the centre ring.
So while it’s now baking and i’m waiting to take the final pics.. let me tell you what else is going on in my world, and share some back story…
Due to an illness in our main worship leader’s family, and unavailability of others, I’ve been back up leading worship the last 2 weeks, and will be again this coming Sunday. This isn’t easy for me. But it used to be second nature.
It was a spot that used to be my 2nd home.. for years, the stage was where i spent a lot of my time outside of work & home. A few things happened in a series of events about 8-9 yrs ago that took me off the stage. I went through a pretty major burnout.. coupled with grief, heartache, pain, deep hurt that took quite some time to recover from. I’m finding this week that I still have a couple of scars, that I had forgotten about. But God is gracious.
I’m not one that harbours unforgiveness, and I did learn to forgive people that were involved at the time in the big issues of the time – but i was changed, and really vulnerable for many years as a result. I was the opposite of hardened. After about 4 years of being completely out of the worship ministry, a new young associate pastor joined our church, and God used him in a huge way to get me back involved. It was almost funny how it happened. I had stayed in the background, running the powerpoint for our services – something that i actually enjoyed doing. After a while i started singing along again. (I actually stopped singing all together for quite a while) Then while in the balcony, one Sunday, our sound tech put a mic in front of me during a worship service.. adding in my alto harmony to the worship band in the House mix. That only lasted a couple of weeks, before our new worship pastor said something to the effect of.. “nuh uh… you’re not doing that – If you want to sing along, you’re coming up here. I need you where I can hear you.” I guess there was an issue of timing as well, because we were so far apart in the sanctuary, by the time his voice reached my ears, and I thought i was harmonizing, i was a millisecond behind him.. enough that he noticed. At least, that’s the reasoning he gave me at the time. Whatever, it eventually worked.
so the mic up in the balcony was taken away. But I didn’t join him on the stage quite yet. That still took awhile. He found someone to replace me in the balcony, saying i shouldn’t hide out up there, and should be on the stage. I balked of course, that meant i had to re-join the congregation on the main floor… I hadn’t realized that being in the balcony was really keeping me separate, it was my ‘safe place’ away, where I could hide. I retreated back in my shell when he took away my safety net, but healing was happening. So eventually i did join him.. backstage -not quite front, just doing a little doo-wop here and there – and i honestly couldn’t tell you how long it took, but it felt fast, and forever at the same time…
Soon i was on full rotation again, singing every 2-3 weeks on one of the teams for the full service. I remember it like yesterday, the first time i walked back on the blue carpet of the springy stage that i hadn’t stepped foot on for about 4 years. I almost cried. It was like coming home, and I felt a bit like the Prodigal son must have.
Fast forward now about 4.5 yrs later.. and here i am, not just leading the full service, but planning it again. I’m a little freaked out. As I said today to my new lead Pastor today… someday I gotta tell you my story, cause you have no idea what you’re asking me, and what a miracle it is that I can say Yes. I don’t plan on doing this on a full rotation again. I think my time has ended, its time for the younger blood, those with passion and ability to really lead us capability. I don’t play an instrument other than my wobbly voice with a 1 octave range.. but I’m glad God’s been able to use me there again.. and heal this heart.
Thanks for listening.. i hope that maybe in sharing this particular journey, maybe it gives YOU some hope if you’re in a situation you can’t see the end of, or you’re hurt & brokenhearted.. or feel that you can no longer be used by God. There IS a God of love, who is Faithful, even when we are faithless.. Who is always there, and will bind up our broken hearts, and use us again.. even as cracked pots.
Treasure in Jars of Clay
But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed
2 Corinthians 4: 7-9
Thanks for reading, and coming along for the journey. Dinner is done.. it received two thumbs up, 👍🏽👍🏽 and leftovers are ready to be packed up for lunches tomorrow.
Blessings… from Bill & Amy’s kitchen.